Sunday, December 03, 2006

wondering..

If anyone who trusted me gave me their password..I would never look at something I shouldn't be looking at..I would just go and do what i was asked to do and thats it.

I once gave an ex bf one of my account's passwords..he checked all my inbox msgs and accused me of betraying him with some guy..while i was just fooling around with a friend who is a girl
(her nickname didn't show that she was a girl).
and recently..my laptop was with one of my close friends who I trust more than my self
(but who doesn't know that I'm into girls)..
at that time she called and asked for my permission to take a look at the files and pictures in my laptop.
ofcourse I said yes..but I never thought that she'd go and read my chat logs..and which chat logs? the ones between me and R..she knew my secret..she remained silent for two weeks..then she came to talk to me about it few days ago.
the surprise is:
she's also into girls..and she's been through what I've been through..

why are people so nosey :S !!
I'd never go and read anyone's chat logs :S or email msgs cuz it could hurt me or I could know something I never knew about and it could change my life or my relationship with that person !
so I'm always on the safe side..

ok here's another thing..
people nowadays are talking about (MOI) kinno mafi ella ana bildinya..
and saying that (MOI) is gay.

the problem is:
-I'm a shy, deep person !
-I never show anything !
-Nothing says that I'm gay!
-Not my clothes, nor the way i act !
-I don't have lesbian friends !
-I never had a true GF !
-Almost NO ONE knows about me
(except my ex's,my closest cousin,2 close friends who would nevertalk and few and I say FEW net friends who don't even know any personal info about me !)
-I never flirted with any girl at all :S

DON'T THEY HAVE BETTER THINGS TO TALK ABOUT?
3AMA INSHA'ALLA =
and I was also wondering about something else..
A Dr would love to be called a Dr (without doubt)
A teacher would love to be called a teacher..
but WHY..
a lesbian would hate to be called a lesbian..
I'm sure some girls are proud of this thing, and some others aren't ..
but why are we hiding it..
why do we lose our tempers when someone says that about us
(when its the truth)..

that's all I have to say for now..

5 Comments:

At 12:45 AM, Blogger Madhatter said...

Love all but trust no one

 
At 4:24 AM, Blogger mei said...

fe nas ye7ebon ye7kon 3an el banat el mo2adabat o ye6al3on kalam mo 9ed8 bs ente kone wath8a eno ma 3endohom dalel 3ala el 7ake el ye6al3ono 3anek :)

 
At 11:48 AM, Blogger pink_ballerina said...

ur right mei..thanx alot for that i never thought of it ;)

 
At 10:18 AM, Blogger Dyke In Saudi said...

Because if you do you know your head will be bitten off. We grew up being taught to hate homosexuals. The society, the people around you and your family all think that. We live in a society where it is a given that you are straight, no matter what. And not only in this society. Everywhere.

So we have to "act" that we hate homosexuals and if ever where "accused" of being one then we should completely deny it (but not too hard, because the people asking will wonder what are you trying to hide :P)
And like mei said, just be confident of yourself!

Take care of yourself and smile! :D

 
At 11:05 AM, Blogger ali said...

I know what it feels like to have people go through your chat logs :@ I snapped when i found out this person was reading my chat logs, that's when i started encrypting them :P maybe you should try that, and just a tip you're probably aware of.. Never, no matter who, never give out your secret numbers and password, it always goes bad at some point.
P.S. nice blog you got there :) i'm new around here, take care!

 

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