My confessions
I'm not a typical bad girl.
I mean I dont drink,smoke,have sex or take drugs.
I also don't do guys.
YES.
YES.
I'm a lesbian.
but it's not something I'm proud of.
It's not something my friends or family or anyone know about.
It's my dark little secret.
I hate tomboys & girly girls.
my type is just different and I'm not anything near a tomboy or a girly girl.
I'm just me. most of my friends are straight, and those who aren't,never really admit it but i just know.
I'm just me. most of my friends are straight, and those who aren't,never really admit it but i just know.
how did this happen?
it started a few years ago..
when this girl i know started dragging me into her dirty world.
when she started being nice to me and loving me like no one ever did.
I was blinded and amazed by a feeling i never experienced before.
our relationship didn't last for so long,it just ended for some reason.
and that's when I realized how much I needed someone in my life,
someone who could love me like she did.
someone who is a girl.
everyone thinks I'm too innocent to do anything wrong..
but how shocking will it be when they find out that I'm a lesbian?
sometimes I think of getting help and telling someone about it because it's not who I wanna be. but I couldn't.
anyways I just came back from my summer vacation and I'm so tired and confused.
I have many important things to think about ..
R is so not treating me well..
I haven't seen her for a while now.
and every time I invite her over she has this really lame excuse so I'll start being rude and careless.
I guess it's the best solution for now.
posted by pink_ballerina @ 2:59 AM
5 Comments:
I just found out that a girl I've known since I was a kid, is a lesbian now. It's weird...because no one ever expected her to become one.
Do you really want help? Is it something you really want to change?
Maybe you should talk to someone about it.
Or maybe you just need to meet the right guy ;)
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surfing on the net... found ur blog!
The text attracted me to read it... and I did.
Maybe you don't feel proud of who you are... but I think you should!
You know I've never been near a situation like that and sure I cant be so much experienced about this topic but I think that if I were you I would not be ashame.
I think... if I ever fall in love for a girl it will not be something I won't be proud of... Of course it's hard to admit it to the family and friends but I think the first step is not to hide it from yourself!! If you keep true to yourself is way easier!
at least... you won't feel guilty for a feeling you cannot control: love! Matter of fact, noone can!
hope to hear more from you...
kiss*
if you're ashamed of being so, do something about it. Unless you you want to tell the whole world that you are a saudi and a lesbian. seems you're proud of it.
what you might get here is preverts telling you not to be ashamed of "love". Look for pro-counseling if you really want to become a straight human bieng.
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